My Beloved, Whom I Desire to Kill

※ This work depicts s*xual consent and coercion through hierarchy, power dynamics, psychological manipulation, and deception. Reader discretion is advised. ※ This work takes place in a time before the publication of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM). Terminology and depiction of mental illnesses in the work may differ from current understandings and reality. When the mister I love falls asleep, the mister I want to kill awakens. Giselle is in love with Edwin, the man who rescued her from the battlefield and raised her. However, a romance between him, the most noble in the land, and her, the most despised, is impossible. No matter how hard she tries to give up, her heart keeps leaning towards his kindness, until one night… “I love you, Giselle.” “Y-You mean… as a w-woman…?” “What else could it be? Do you think I’d do this if I loved you like a daughter?” Their love feels like a dream come true, but then… “I’m truly sorry, but this childish game is over.” His love was all a lie. You thought of me as your mister so you let me do whatever I want. It was disgusting. He only picked you up and raised you like a dog. The mister has a split personality, and Giselle is toyed with by “Lorenz,” the personality of the enemy he killed. “What if I kill your precious ‘Mister’ and take over this body to love you?” “I don’t need the love of a leech like you. I’ll kill you.” “I love you. I love you, sir, please love me too.” “Giselle, I don’t want to lose you. Not like this.” Edwin, unable to see the child he raised as a woman. Giselle, unable to see him as anything but a man. And Lorenz, reveling in their discord. Three desires that cannot coexist collide, ultimately leading to disaster… “You won. Are you satisfied now?” As this catastrophic melodrama called desire reaches its climax, Who kills in the name of love?