Unspeakable

In the purest days of early springtime, my selfish love was given to you. Time passes and my heart has never changed, but my feelings have become completely unspeakable. Shen Kanyu had chased after Gu Yansheng from the moment they met and all years following. He has been married to him for 3 years, has birthed a daughter for him, and now lives at this house he hates to return to, cooking for him even on days he doesn’t return. Still, he is content to continue on as long as their days pass like this. In a place where their hands touch the same bowl, where Gu Yansheng comes to linger in his daughter’s grip, and where warmth softly ghosts him. Easing the ache in his bones, a home that belongs to him, a place he can watch a beautiful little girl and the man he loves happily till the day he dies. A piece of paper at the bottom of a drawer, a rough sketch of a family of three as they walk hand in hand and a dark smear staining the corner of the page. Yet all this still feels sweet.